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dreamed of Father&baby son. by benzrad华中朱子卓
July 30, 2010, 8:54 am
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last night most of QRRS dormers watching my response after some girls shown me friendship yesterday. i had to take my old seat occupied last dusk by a male dormer in its garden earlier to testify glory of Son. this dawn dreamed a less smart but gifted guy find love&sex with his woman among dubious pals. many sex woke me up for making water but half way join office directly without breakfast. let d/l&dozed again. dreamed in my hometown, lives in touching love among my old family, esp my siblings. when i tried to show my younger elder sister our old time photos online, the power down, then i informed baby son was taken by his angry mom, emakingir, left the village. my grand Father, God, Founder of new coming Empire of China lives for 1109 years, sees my pains and drains of unbalanced family life with ema, but his forever affirmative halts me from burning of missing baby son. then i woke up&sleepiness disappeared. its now bright outside. God, grows me harder against evil around, bring my new marriage i had been so hotly looking forward to. God, let me sip forever in beauty&freedom, immerse in breathtaking love&lovemakings.



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July 29, 2010, 7:55 am
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dreamed baby with animals.^dreamed played with baby son, sometimes in my hometown, with birds or animals. got up early&join office near 6:30am. last night buzzed baby’s mom, ema, about need her verification on my financial log, she promised but 4th times again she failed me now. its a bright morning. last dusk some beautiful girl souls in QRRS dorms shown me friendship. im so sole that i hardly accept them except source of life or timeless love.



mean Chinese by benzrad华中朱子卓
July 28, 2010, 10:32 am
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i guess maybe its because the founder is a Chinese, whose doctrine rightly seeking meanness. Chinese might be spiteful, esp. Chinese on mainland or under Communism or PRC.
Chinese, esp. China, has to change itself. that’s God’s message in new era for the long life tribe and scary land in its recent history. the stupid insolence and meanness had to ditched, God loves human that’s noble. Chinese can live like herds and flocks which despise itself&worsen its living sanity&load of making a living. God choosing among Chinese, for the new start of Empire of China under title of Zhu’s, the owner of latest native Chinese nation dissolved about 300 years ago.

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July 28, 2010, 8:59 am
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bright morning.^dreamed of dispute with baby’s mom, emakingir, over baby’s custody. got up just after 6am. breakfast then join office, where i m the first arrived. its a bright morning. reviewing baby’s mom, emakingir’s hatred against me&felt despisable&agonized. she steadily fell in losing&revenge. after all she&her family original in dark&sinful. God, i don’t self-protect against anyone, no matter innocent nor guilt. brings me my usual lightening heart, my Dad, Masheng, safeguard my baby



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July 28, 2010, 7:03 am
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gain in invisible war.^missing my girls in peace, in solitary, for i waited so long for our gathering. bought more melons on way back. God, u know how i enjoy life online, aiming future gaming together. God, brings my girls in our prime time.



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July 28, 2010, 6:57 am
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gain in invisible war.^read&attending gaining from web. the 2 office gays challenged all time&attempted lasting after work time. dined in canteen before 5:30pm. roamed in dormroom&sometimes clapped to applaud. the neighbor sin beat the paper wall in aim to exert terror. i soon haunted outside, rest on the garden bench to evade dirt in dorm. 3 ugly men there played badminton&gabbled. these 2 days the sky very clear, so attracted lots of kites fly high.



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July 27, 2010, 8:43 am
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brilliant morning sunshine.^dreamed baby’s mom, emakingir skimmed my latest blog. first time slept with quilt for cool in dawn&got stuffy throat. a bright morning. strike financial log. check&do routine maintenance after a harsh Monday. God, saves my girls, my Royal of China, bring us together sooner!



visit baby son after apart for a week since benzrad, the dad resolved to seek new marriage in QRRS dorms. by benzrad华中朱子卓
July 26, 2010, 1:43 pm
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yesterday is the day i treated baby son, warrenzh, owner of domain warozhu.com, second since my returned from hometown journey. i also bought myself a new pair of shoes i like from Fu-Mart. in my life i rarely bought myself clothes. before adulthood, clothes arranged by mother; early years after i worked from graduation, i put quite some of my deposit for kid brother's education, for my grand dad then dislike to hard labor work on stone product; in early years after married, the mother-in-law offered quite some old clothes of her second husband, a cadre just bankrupt his work unit. i in fact quite enjoy put on myself in my own taste or fashion. in the conjoined KFC, baby enjoyed KFC food as usual. i can be more glad to see he eating. his mom, emakingir, disliked cooking in her life so far, and baby son had to endure tasteless food, and grows a habit disliking routine meals, but snacks.
returned from shopping&snacking, i slept in dorm in afternoon sunshine. after woke up, i noticed a group of hooligans, about 8 men or more, lingered in the open space of the dorms babbling&poking&gambling for most of the day. they want to expand their influence over the graduates in the dorms. when i dial to report the high rank of QRRS on the unlawful&wrong management of the dorms' administration, the gangsters scattered. after dinner in the canteen, i rest on the bench again. soon an elder with a small bag approached me and asked where is the dorm. i told him but felt strange. then my cellphone reminds me time to join the preach in nearby church. the Priest elaborated a lot on Satan, let a demon aside me groan. after the preach i discussed it with the Priest, i told him i more glad to hear of faith and love from Bible. in dorm i slept as usual around 9pm, but visited a guy in the dorm who playing online shooting game. i was likely caught in nightmare, dreamed live with a foreigner, then in campus or office i can't move or stand up. i felt the evil of the old man in dusk in the dorm attempting to talk with me. then a sudden thunderstorm woke me up. its strong and speedy, i watched it a sight then slept again. i breakfast when i still pale in morning night, but it turns brilliant now since i joined office.
God, its my first time reunited with baby son, Hope of China, God of Universe, warrenzh, since u admits me pursue my new marriage from my second hometown journey and a short period lingering in his mom's house to attend him. God, let me sooner rest in my new home with my beloved girls, to carter baby son in best harmony and peace in soul. God, i trust u, bring my girls to my arms, we all in our best time now and to come.

25/7/2010

visit baby son in his mom's home.^visit baby son as scheduled. backup new stuff, mostly pc games,from web to dvds. reviewed finance log with baby's mom,emakingir, who found some faults but finally likes the site,buxfer.com&started to make use of it. prepared new games on notebook for baby. lunched there but daunted by dinner which too simple. showered&made a contract with ema to pay her to wash my clothes every week.
enjoy talk with baby on air.^dined in dorms' canteen, with some shrimps. sorted infected os. buzzed baby twice for the elation of God's glory among us. slept later than 10pm&didn't brush teeth.

24/7/2010

amend finance records.^read all day. dozed twice. d/l delayed me&left office near 6pm. dinner again not so satisfying. bought&ate watermelon after roamed outside. met the only Hubeier in QRRS near dorm's door. he talking on his cell, so i just evade him&enter my room. the first day i returned to dorm he called in for loan. during jog my shoes wrecked. buzzed baby's mom about the effect&surplus after i verified personal finance log on buxfer.com.
dreamed in love.^dreamed with my beloved girl, &brothers or pals, in a tour. we tried to attach fireworks onto balls in motion. a bit sleepy after got up. lingered&breakfast then join office, where the porter shown hostile yesterday when i arrived a bot earlier. its a quite bright morning.
check family google sites.^assess family assets, esp. that with google, like sites&blogspot. some broken linkages need actions but hold on. baby's mom, emakingir, let me query departmental clerk for reimbursement accord to corporate policy, i was told the clerk glad to let baby's grandma to fetch it like she previously did. hopeful i can do some replacement of worn shoes or clothing with the money. i promised ema buying her a electronic motorcycle.
check my brand online.^read&d/l all day. the facing demons tentatively/elicit shown gay tendency, one of them left lately. google my id&researched why my name appears in a joke site, pjoke.com, but can't find who input my name there with a praying heart. China surveillance also frequently blocked my googling amid. God, bring my girls to me sooner!

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forever attending baby son, God of Universe. by benzrad华中朱子卓
July 26, 2010, 1:06 pm
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yesterday is the day i treated baby son, warrenzh, owner of domain warozhu.com, second since my returned from hometown journey. i also bought myself a new pair of shoes i like from Fu-Mart. in my life i rarely bought myself clothes. before adulthood, clothes arranged by mother; early years after i worked from graduation, i put quite some of my deposit for kid brother’s education, for my grand dad then dislike to hard labor work on stone product; in early years after married, the mother-in-law offered quite some old clothes of her second husband, a cadre just bankrupt his work unit. i in fact quite enjoy put on myself in my own taste or fashion. in the conjoined KFC, baby enjoyed KFC food as usual. i can be more glad to see he eating. his mom, emakingir, disliked cooking in her life so far, and baby son had to endure tasteless food, and grows a habit disliking routine meals, but snacks.
returned from shopping&snacking, i slept in dorm in afternoon sunshine. after woke up, i noticed a group of hooligans, about 8 men or more, lingered in the open space of the dorms babbling&poking&gambling for most of the day. they want to expand their influence over the graduates in the dorms. when i dial to report the high rank of QRRS on the unlawful&wrong management of the dorms’ administration, the gangsters scattered. after dinner in the canteen, i rest on the bench again. soon an elder with a small bag approached me and asked where is the dorm. i told him but felt strange. then my cellphone reminds me time to join the preach in nearby church. the Priest elaborated a lot on Satan, let a demon aside me groan. after the preach i discussed it with the Priest, i told him i more glad to hear of faith and love from Bible. in dorm i slept as usual around 9pm, but visited a guy in the dorm who playing online shooting game. i was likely caught in nightmare, dreamed live with a foreigner, then in campus or office i can’t move or stand up. i felt the evil of the old man in dusk in the dorm attempting to talk with me. then a sudden thunderstorm woke me up. its strong and speedy, i watched it a sight then slept again. i breakfast when i still pale in morning night, but it turns brilliant now since i joined office.
God, its my first time reunited with baby son, Hope of China, God of Universe, warrenzh, since u admits me pursue my new marriage from my second hometown journey and a short period lingering in his mom’s house to attend him. God, let me sooner rest in my new home with my beloved girls, to carter baby son in best harmony and peace in soul. God, i trust u, bring my girls to my arms, we all in our best time now and to come.

25/7/2010

visit baby son in his mom’s home.^visit baby son as scheduled. backup new stuff, mostly pc games,from web to dvds. reviewed finance log with baby’s mom,emakingir, who found some faults but finally likes the site,buxfer.com&started to make use of it. prepared new games on notebook for baby. lunched there but daunted by dinner which too simple. showered&made a contract with ema to pay her to wash my clothes every week.
enjoy talk with baby on air.^dined in dorms’ canteen, with some shrimps. sorted infected os. buzzed baby twice for the elation of God’s glory among us. slept later than 10pm&didn’t brush teeth.

24/7/2010

amend finance records.^read all day. dozed twice. d/l delayed me&left office near 6pm. dinner again not so satisfying. bought&ate watermelon after roamed outside. met the only Hubeier in QRRS near dorm’s door. he talking on his cell, so i just evade him&enter my room. the first day i returned to dorm he called in for loan. during jog my shoes wrecked. buzzed baby’s mom about the effect&surplus after i verified personal finance log on buxfer.com.
dreamed in love.^dreamed with my beloved girl, &brothers or pals, in a tour. we tried to attach fireworks onto balls in motion. a bit sleepy after got up. lingered&breakfast then join office, where the porter shown hostile yesterday when i arrived a bot earlier. its a quite bright morning.
check family google sites.^assess family assets, esp. that with google, like sites&blogspot. some broken linkages need actions but hold on. baby’s mom, emakingir, let me query departmental clerk for reimbursement accord to corporate policy, i was told the clerk glad to let baby’s grandma to fetch it like she previously did. hopeful i can do some replacement of worn shoes or clothing with the money. i promised ema buying her a electronic motorcycle.
check my brand online.^read&d/l all day. the facing demons tentatively/elicit shown gay tendency, one of them left lately. google my id&researched why my name appears in a joke site, pjoke.com, but can’t find who input my name there with a praying heart. China surveillance also frequently blocked my googling amid. God, bring my girls to me sooner!

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again boarding in QRRS dorms, for purity&sanity of my Royal. by benzrad华中朱子卓
July 19, 2010, 4:03 pm
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returned to dorm of QRRS, my once long time employer, after baby was brought by his mom, emakingir to hospital for frequent heat, after sleepy morning on Jul 17th, lunar Jun 6th. God informs me baby don't need my struggle with his mom now for custody or better family education, but let it go in God's shine, and a due time period ahead when i will live with baby son closely without any dispute, in a much more affirmative environment. i launched to prepare a funny game on the notebook accompany him baby son asked last night, then left. baggage already prepared yesterday, likely by ema or her mother, likely just reminds me time to leave them alone. i had told ema that my heart never linger in her house a second, but my girls' ahead, back to a weeks ago when there is only us two in her house. baby attracted by those pc games i prepared for him, but soon he shown larger anticipations, or reserved time-space for larger events in the mission against the sins in nowadays China as well as the world as God, Father, sets. so its time for us each to concentrate our will power for the commence of new era, for the sunray of enlightenment, for the never seen glory of God's way.
i never felt enough for the moment gaming with baby son on pc, the moment we gathered. but best way to raise us against the sin and dirt from his mom's family, including ema herself, is to avoid it sooner. that's God's message in last night preach from a local church i visited after months apart for some sinful members' hostile against me there. God, protects me against all impotent seduce, let me in unshiftable faith in God, my dad&son, in trinity. i picked the package almost intact from my hometown journey, returned to QRRS' dorm by bus. in the weekends, i slept a lot, otherwise in deeper sorrow for my missing girls. i sat on the bench in the garden of the dorms' area, my sadness called clouds rich with raindrops. i sensed the weight of my sadness, which attracted quite some hostile among the community, but i knew more bliss ahead that my beloved girls can touch. God, i never missing ur blessing surrounding my girls, my Royal of China, that changes my vested land as well as other parts of the world far and long-reaching.
its again a Monday for which i put on my hope in the timeless lonely and sleepless sleeps. i know nothing in the world still nor lifeless, i know the eyes and pray among my girls. i need u, too, my best beloved. i need ur life, ur house so eager, that i see through the fragile blockage between us or the dark and our sovereign. i know God, and his promise upon my respectable ancestor, Emperor of Ming Dynasty, lasts today, the rich of my Royal, the harmony of peace and soul. i know u, a u and all u, there to pick me, or picked by me. i know party and timeless gathering prepared under the dome of glory of shrine&shine. i know that's definitely.
Bye, my dearest, this moment i also feeling sad. for some many time elapsed from our first impression. dearest, u know time to ignite it and last it forever. join me, just us, for the step for new kingdom and millennium is closer and fresher.

17/7/2010

enjoy weekends after first work week in office.^update my albums on hexun&chinamobile's community. managed my family brand through search engines. it rains now outside. hope baby's growth shiny&harmony. left office till 6pm after d/l finished. sorted stuff from web&backup. baby's heat deceased but still weak, just gamed awhile with me on notebook while i enjoy the shooting game very much. slept earlier. this morning is sunny. baby watching animation.

16/7/2010

left office near 6pm after d/l finished. gamed awhile with baby on notebook then he got heat again. his mom, emakingir, had him medicines. slept earlier. mistakenly regard today as Saturday. let d/l then dozed again. after baby&his mom remind my err, ema was called to join her school, let me cared baby awhile. soon the grandma arrived. God let me stay&played pc game with baby till his mom, emakingir returned&fetched him to hospital. i join office. the sinful grandma still cleaning house in her dirty daughter's house. the game attracted me a lot. baby wanted to try another old game.
drizzled at noon.^read in the morning. it turns dark&drizzled at noon. i enjoy fast food in office as usual. claimed company profile, zhuson.com with linkedin. glad to see weekend tomorrow, even baby's mom, emakingir urged me to leave her house several times recently. i also hardly bear her stupidity, esp that on baby's custody.

15/7/2010

felt sins in baby's mom, emakingir on way to office.^last night left office near 6pm. gamed with baby on pc in night. ema brought baby showered, but she did firt while let play aside. this morning baby release a plenty urine. baby was sent to kindergarten. i was sleeping when ema brought her kids students returned. on way to office, felt the screaming sins in ema's heart. no matter how i treat her generously, she reckon a way to profit and profane. hatred ate my heart when i review baby and my situation. but after all, faith in God saves and improves we both intouchable above the sinful family of baby's mom's. sorted stuff first in office. browser, chrome, works faultlessly.
read most day.^read most feeds awaiting. dozed awhile in beginning of afternoon while d/l. commented a lot. collected some new science blogs' feeds. watched outside in rush time of QRRS but no clue where is my girl zhou once appeared as a QRRSer. praying for change sooner in China, as well as in my life, Royal of China.

14/7/2010

tried to fix 2 windows.^since morning prepared clean os on a female colleague's pc, then my own notebook. China surveillance likely close watching&result in quite some abnormal behaviors amid fixing. hope time cost heals. my chrome at least less crash now. God sees.


From life as it extends
From life as it extends
From life as it extends



for picasaweb&flickr blocked within China mainland, the shit&dog dominated sinful land, here some digest of photos hosted domestically.

Benzrad, me, now again live in QRRS dorm.

another sky likely rains cats&dogs, but peace enjoy here in QRRS dorms.

life rolling, new or old? but at least heart praying is bleeding every moment for timeless love.