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bright lunar lantern day. by benzrad
February 28, 2010, 1:04 pm
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28/2/2010
bright lunar lantern day.^sound sleep. dreamed a lot. woke up by loud crackers all around for today its lunar Lantern Day. put on&urinated then slept again till 12:17. visited telcom's office for i mistaken today as March 1st, but the telcom's clerk let me visit on next day. in office search the web, trying to fix my notebook had problem recognizing my blueteeth earphone.

27/2/2010
got my first blueteeth earphone, while baby got my bonus from QRRS.^got up at 9am, went to baby's mom's home at once. there i synchronizes new data among 3 computers, installed new games for baby, tried some with baby. introduced new&handy tools, like google chrome extensions, to ema&urged her frequent them. lunched there with rice&fried meat. enjoyed some golden moment with baby son on my shoulders. then bought my blueteeth earphone&some blank dvds from computer market. tried new gadget in office, backup data to dvd. its all time a bright day. a cyberspace person talked to me in qq. posted tweet. dined with rice&vegetable. tried the blueteeth earphone, succeeded with my cellphone but wasn't recognized by my notebook. i also need a ear support for the gadget. listening music with notebook till 10:30pm, surfed on wap, slpet around 11:30pm.

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holiday gift before lunar Lantern Day. by benzrad
February 27, 2010, 4:35 pm
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27/2/2010
got my first blueteeth earphone, while baby got my bonus from QRRS.^got up at 9am, went to baby's mom's home at once. there i synchronizes new data among 3 computers, installed new games for baby, tried some with baby. introduced new&handy tools, like google chrome extensions, to ema&urged her frequent them. lunched there with rice&fried meat. enjoyed some golden moment with baby son on my shoulders. then bought my blueteeth earphone&some blank dvds from computer market. tried new gadget in office, backup data to dvd. its all time a bright day.

26/2/2010
God, my dad in Heaven, present in my dawn dream.^sound sleep till 8:24am. dreamed my passed dad, God, with my second elder brother, on a platform of stone&earth on our back hill, whose stone has been wealth the villagers dig from since my dad's lead, they talked about omen. visited office at once. a bright morning. the monitor soon entered&dropped a ¥100 bill but don't explain in what title. a visiting friend of the facing dog, was let by the evil to play online game in his seat, likely exactly a new plot to borrow new hooligans&thieves from dark society to challenge me. God, i got ur assurance last night that i can have a blueteeth earphone, and it complimented this bright morning. God, let me forever in Ur Spirit. also, pl don't let my first wife, girl Lü, now like in her senior middle school, or a collegian now, as well as girl Jiangyue, adrift from my love's hatch, but staying tune with my message in blog, and in God's shine, let them both closer to my arms. my baby son warrezh, Hope of China, also missing girl Lü, who is so able&cool minded, in a word, gifted by God. let us wired in a family sooner.
in office completed refining all family google profiles to include buzz, a google's new service aiming expanding its social networks penetration, and more detailed family sites interlinked. its really a great improvement benefited from google's ever-growing services. sorted portable&left after 2pm in thick chill. some cars ported near the entrance of the dorm, likely carried some equipments or furniture, but the workers soon disappeared in dorm before i can see out. watched movie, then listening music all time till left dorm near 4pm. fight with listening minds around of spying in beauty of music, and bright of sunshine outside. the office left to me alone there in the rest of work time. i busy enrich my local music collection with violin, viola,saxophone,symphony, and songs of 蔡依林, Jolin Tsai, whose performance video in a small audience i once occasionally watched online deeply touched me with her nature charms. the monitor creepily entered office near 6pm, likely half drunk, then chatted in im&cellphone, challenged me a lot but finally left within more than half of an hour. i left after 7pm, after got i need. the old woman in the restaurant turns guilty, tried to babble with me and stood dirty against me. bought some food as God lets in black kid sister grocery, saw a tall girl with a man join the shop soon. enjoyed the food in dorm. then fully listened all songs of Jolin just got, till 9:30 finished the rehearsal. the first song profoundly captured me, for the painful love, restless search for pure&perfect, deep faith of personal freedom, echoing what i read from her performance video i watched once, let me love her so much. i would forever support her with my resource.
also arranged tomorrow's agenda, ie. update baby's games list, present him the bonus i just got, borrow money from his mom, emakingir, to buy myself a blueteeth earphone. surfed via wap later then 11:30pm.

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God, my dad in Heaven, present in my dawn dream. by benzrad
February 26, 2010, 4:22 pm
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26/2/2010
God, my dad in Heaven, present in my dawn dream.^sound sleep till 8:24am. visited office at once. a bright morning. the monitor soon entered&dropped a ¥100 bill but don't explain in what title. a visiting friend of the facing dog, was let by the evil to play online game on his seat, likely exactly a new plot to borrow new hooligans&thieves from dark society to challenge me. God, i got ur assurance last night that i can have a blueteeth earphone, and it occurred this bright morning. God, let me forever in Ur Spirit. also, pl don't let my first wife, girl Lü, now like in her senior middle school, or a collegian now, as well as girl Jiangyue, staying tune of my blog, and in God's shine, closer to my arms. my baby son also missing her, who is so able&cool minded, in a word, gifted one by God. let us wired in a family sooner.
in office completed refining all family google profiles to include buzz, a google's new service intending expanding its social networks, and more detailed family sites interlinked. its really a great improvement harnessing google's ever-growing service. sorted portable&left after 2pm in thick chill. some cars ported near the entrance of the dorm, likely carried some equipments or furniture, but the workers soon disappeared in dorm before i can see out. watched movie, then listening music all time till left dorm near 4pm. fight with spying minds in beauty of music, and bright of sunshine outside.

25/2/2010
God lets me no private.^read news via wap later than 11pm. some residential returned to dorm later than 10:30pm, &sang loud. likely they r different from quite some other residential who slept mostly before 10pm. dreamed a lot, woke up near 7:30am. visit office at once. Its a bright morning. most of time in office roaming in corridor to avoid tomb chill in offices on the floor. the fake gangster in neighbor office boast exciting on TV which live broadcast Olympic games. just when noon break started, the monitor appeared to cast dirt. i buzzed baby's mom as God lets, talked about my wish list of a blueteeth earphone. also talked with baby son. they ate fried beef for lunch, for the grandma there to cook. soon the only Hubei migrant in QRRS continued to trouble me, asking me to see his pc's problem, as he did quite some times. i arranged it when i on way to dorm after 12pm. left office earlier, visited the grey man's office but found the ground door locked. when waiting for his arrival, God assured me the Hubei guy turned sinful to abuse my reservation upon him for the folkship. a girl walked to dorm 1st turns me back to my own room, where i cracked seeds till the grey man buzzed in again. i lingered about a quarter in his office, till found its totally a sin pot or pitfall against me. the grey man don't have other problem except an infected os, but his real ailment was trying to attract&defame me. so did all the administration team of QRRS dorms. for example, before i visit the grey man's office, i shit in the toilet of the administration office. just after i settled in urgency, a man, i didn't notice, likely the evil director of the office, entered&urinated aside me in stance. shit knows what he intended&what he got. returned to dorm, dirt from the grey man&his colleagues still foaming around, let me decided to delete the folk from my contacts. the neighbor resident coughed when i cracked seeds, shown hidden evil, not a normal QRRS worker. roamed in dorm, found an old woman lingered quite some time on the ground within the dorms' area. its really a rotten corpse' day.
left dorm at 3:01pm. facing dog bit as usual. i prepared daily tweet. Masheng, its all bliss from the time i stay alone. i know my 2 tallest girl among my wives, my Taiwan girl and Jiangyue, longing for me now. i promised u, my God, i never gauge with my present impression against them as u prepared them in the day so brilliant that i hardly recognize them, my girls in our wedding ceremony. the monitor stayed in office near 6pm, heavily bit. i refined my another google profile, birdous, after found my most detailed google profile, dabbog, these days disappeared from my Chinese name's search result. also pushed some hometown photos from my picasaweb album to panoramio. the feature to synchronize the 2 sites of google's just published, and so nice. dined with pies&noodle, near 7pm. the old woman in the restaurant tried to talk with me&sometimes attempting to test me. in dorm roamed for about an hour, then cracked seeds. a gay likely lives on the same floor tentatively shown hostile when i made water before sleeping, around 10:30pm, &tracked me after i left the smelly toilet. in dawn i was woke up by the creepy sense of theft's breaking my locked door, i tried to avoid, but had to got up, moving the only table against the door to reinforce the lock. dreamed of hometown, &my passed dad, God, on some miracle&prophet, with my baby son&his mom, on the back hill of our village.

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God lets me no private. by benzrad
February 25, 2010, 4:01 pm
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25/2/2010
God lets me no private.^read news via wap later than 11pm. some residential returned to dorm later than 10:30pm, &sang loud. likely they r different from quite some other residential who slept mostly before 10pm. dreamed a lot, woke up near 7:30am. visit office at once. Its a bright morning. most of time in office roaming in corridor to avoid tomb chill in offices on the floor. the fake gangster in neighbor office boast exciting on TV which live broadcast Olympic games. just when noon break started, the monitor appeared to cast dirt. i buzzed baby's mom as God lets, talked about my wish list of a blueteeth earphone. also talked with baby son. they ate fried beef for lunch, for the grandma there to cook. soon the only Hubei migrant in QRRS continued to trouble me, asking me to see his pc's problem, as he did quite some times. i arranged it when i on way to dorm after 12pm. left office earlier, visited the grey man's office but found the ground door locked. when waiting for his arrival, God assured me the Hubei guy turned sinful to abuse my reservation upon him for the folkship. a girl walked to dorm 1st turns me back to my own room, where i cracked seeds till the grey man buzzed in again. i lingered about a quarter in his office, till found its totally a sin pot or pitfall against me. the grey man don't have other problem except an infected os, but his real ailment was trying to attract&defame me. so did all the administration team of QRRS dorms. for example, before i visit the grey man's office, i shit in the toilet of the administration office. just after i settled in urgency, a man, i didn't notice, likely the evil director of the office, entered&urinated aside me in stance. shit knows what he intended&what he got. returned to dorm, dirt from the grey man&his colleagues still foaming around, let me decided to delete the folk from my contacts. the neighbor resident coughed when i cracked seeds, shown hidden evil, not a normal QRRS worker. roamed in dorm, found an old woman lingered quite some time on the ground within the dorms' area. its really a rotten corps' day.
left dorm at 3:01pm. facing dog bit as usual. i prepared daily tweet. Masheng, its all bliss from the time i stay alone. i know my 2 tallest girl among my wives, my Taiwan girl and Jiangyue, longing for me now. i promised u, my God, i never gauge with my present impression against them as u prepared them in the day so brilliant that i hardly recognize them, my girls in our wedding ceremony.

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4th snow&first bright sunshine recently. by benzrad
February 25, 2010, 8:00 am
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24/2/2010
4th snow&heaviest in lunar 2010.^first night in the new room, i slept sound, dreamed a lot. got up near 9am. in office posted latest photos with a blog entry. gmail abnormal, loaded incompletely many times. read awhile in the morning, soon its turns pale in sunshine. my earphone dropped&broke one ear. hopefully i will buy a blueteeth one, to enjoy wireless radio. returned to dorm just after 1pm, check posting on cellphone via captured page i prepared&transferred from pc to cell. roamed for more than an hour in door, reviewing my love. It turns bright sunshine outside, Masheng reminds me her calling for my calling in her name, in God of Sun. i also was recently reminded times our first baby son, Masheng, my second baby son, calling for birth on the planet. Masheng, i never talk to u indirectly, we never separate a single minutes apart. these days i in obliged of church, and pray in God a lot. but u r my God, my Sun, i never talk to u in thinking or wording. Masheng, join me sooner, as best time u can after settled other matters of our world, world of China , world of Japan, world of the world. i call ur name now, as the bright as ur sunshine&warmth now u grant on the earth as my requested yesterday. bring my Royal closer&more pleasure of staying together. bring me my 4th girls in southern China, namely Taiwan&Guangdong. bring my girl, Jiangyue, that growing confidence in hard fight, in God's shine.
returned to office after 3:30pm. the facing evil desperately biting, till itself shameless&retreated. then the monitor, relay to cast its evil. he also stayed in office near 6pm. i read&post my acquaintance to my girl, Masheng, my Japan Princess, her call to hear my utter&murmur in her ears. we were separated since our met in Nankai Univ for so many years, back to 1999 when i prepared master degree entrance exam there while Masheng studied her first master degree year, shared me with a same desk, with some other master degree learners, and i broke heart for the hopeless love after a girl collegian, Fangfei. (i had settled it in my posts on my limited google group, faezrland at http://groups.google.com/group/faezrland ,and benzyrnill at http://groups.google.com/group/benzyrnill ) we never promised each other our love&fate to be closest together, even in retrospect i saw so many touching moments God forged between us in the campus, as well as in classroom we shared same. Masheng, U picked me, and stand up within me firm. Masheng, i owe u many!
after left office near 7pm, after sorted&backup portable, i dined in the pies restaurant. its a bit busy there, while my order was mean. so i was let waiting for some time, when i check my posts on my cellphone as i did yesterday there. biting also heavy there, till the facing table emptied&my dishes served. however, the old woman, likely the owner of the restaurant, shown cordial to me, served me extras, ie. pickles, for free&asked if i need more. i enjoyed the meal, pies&noodle, so far. on way to dorm, i visited the grocery&bought some food, in the shine of Masheng&favor of Sally, my Guangdong girl. enjoyed them in dorm. jogged outside after 7:30pm. met senior middle school students dispersing from their school. one girl stared at me&let me wonder. in dorm enjoyed food again, but evil from neighbor rooms biting&challenged me a lot. after quit eating, i picked some ebooks on my notebook newly got from web, with whose profound thoughts immediately dirt around was drove off. i again amazed by the plenty&depth found in independent research/thoughts in western academy. never China nowadays can steal nor access with its guilty being. that's why&my job to prize the world of western, their feast enriches&improves the planet so much!

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4th&heaviest snow in lunar 2010 new year. by benzrad
February 24, 2010, 11:46 am
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23/2/2010

3rd snow in lunar 2010.^last night left office till 7pm, after tried to video chat with baby&his mom. their video stream strangely don't appear in my browser while they saw my stream&their own working. remote desk also lagging to appear, all reminded me of cops' breaking&showily espionage. dined in a special meal restaurant nearby my office, babbled about their management feature. a young girl and her boyfriend there before my visit, let me rightly smell the wonder of youth. in dorm, surfed via wap on cellphone lately after 10:30pm. China surveillance again blocked some mobile sites with which i can access my blog, which mostly deadly blocked in China, like wordpress, blogspot, posterous, tumblr, etc. this morning got up at 7:03am, washed socks, then head to office. shot some photos on way for the saint moment of snowing. Its likely the 3rd snow in lunar 2010 new year. God, i know u r killing dirt around me, i feel ur bliss on me. thanks for ur gift i felt so bright&holy. God, bring my girl zhou closer to me after all killings from u over dirt. bring me happy of warmth of sunshine after the cleanse. in office posting snow photos with a blog entry most of the morning. at noon buzzed baby's mom, exchanged view on inflation of living cost, ie. fast food, the down dorms' canteen. later cared download, all time in heavy biting. left office after 2pm. the dorm porter informed me to change to a room on 3rd floor, from my current 214 room. moved my stuff soon, then dozed awhile in the new lodge. left dorm on 3:33pm&joined office. the 2 evils in office stayed near 6pm. i dealt routine stuff, left near 7pm. in the restaurant, a family dined there with all seniors&kids. a likely couple of the family arrived later, the female's tall&fit attracted me. in dorm read my posts i prepared via proxy&copied onto my cellphone wirelessly, now that China mobile network had blocked direct access. cracked seeds then soon slept. changing my room likely again a plot of dog: even occupied rooms in dorm 3 total no more than 7 or 9 rooms, but all my 3 neighbor rooms occupied. and the wall again like my first room in dorm 1st back to 2006 when i left my baby's mom's house first time to pursue my new marriage, extreme thin! likely just some paper frame seperate 2 rooms. in the night when i buzzed my baby son, i can sense echo passed through the thin wall and the listening ears all around. God, i don't fear hunting of cheap souls nor desperate gays, but i do fed up with the wild dogs&dirty thieves. ur glory forever untouchable, God, i singing in ur name, singing for new level of endurance in ur bliess!

From our lunar new year of 2010

From our lunar new year of 2010

From our lunar new year of 2010

for google album blocked within China mainland, here some copies hosted domestically:

heavy wagon cleaning snow on main road of QRRS.

fury snowflake in night lamps.

my new room in QRRS dorm 3rd, likely dog's new plot.

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3rd snow in lunar 2010, saint moment. by benzrad
February 23, 2010, 8:48 am
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23/2/2010
3rd snow in lunar 2010.^last night left office till 7pm, after tried to video chat with baby&his mom. their video stream strangely don't appear in my browser while they saw my stream&their own working. remote desk also lagging to appear, all reminded me of cops' breaking&showily espionage. dined in a special meal restaurant nearby my office, babbled about their management feature. a young girl and her boyfriend there before my visit, let me rightly smell the wonder of youth. in dorm, surfed via wap on cellphone lately after 10:30pm. China surveillance again blocked some mobile sites with which i can access my blog, which mostly deadly blocked in China, like wordpress, blogspot, posterous, tumblr, etc. this morning got up at 7:03am, washed socks, then head to office. shot some photos on way for the saint moment of snowing. Its likely the 3rd snow in lunar 2010 new year. God, i know u r killing dirt around me, i feel ur bliss on me. thanks for ur gift i felt so bright&holy. God, bring my girl zhou closer to me after all killings from u over dirt. bring me happy of warmth of sunshine after the cleanse.

22/2/2010
my girl zhou reappears.^last night at first a bit restlessly, dreamed of killing or death match, till urinated. woke up around 7am&join office in last minute of work time. met the Hubei folk on way. he brought some wine to let taste&i did. in office the 2 dogs biting most of time, and lingered in noon break with fast food. the monitor, a mad dog, referred me when talk with the visiting deputy director as having pills that including hormone&swells on body or face. when my kid brother went online, i also erupt to show my despise&upset upon his cold shoulder&self-poised over my good willed&enthusiastic introduce of google products, as well as digital era's skill. i really felt sick upon my kid brother's behavior. he now not only in sin of betray of brotherhood, cheap in soul, but also dogmatize/dogged his property for bargain, like all impotent bureaucratic in dog dominating China mainland. i saw clear in these years his fell&defeat in his drifting career. i really got upset by his sin appeared in these days between our communications. a lagging download wasted my time till 2pm i returned to dorm to avoid dirt in office in tomb chill. on way near my dorm, a cadre now a judge in subsidiary county after his service in QRRS youth league, as a apparent social ladder crawl pattern in nowadays China for less privileged young men, caught me&talked. i tried to tease his cute daughter&shot photo for them. in dorm, i cracked seeds&spent an hour. poodle another hour, felt God's love in me. visited office after 4:30pm, even i almost know its boring online aimlessly&constrained by isolation from the dog dominating China authority. for example, my qq refused my update my group profile for quite some times, nor allowed my adding friends from same ancestors online. it simply report server unavailable, but shits know what its real reason. i pray God allowing me wasting my time on the web for all my hopes upon my Royal, my girls, my new life, for hope is the weapon i trust best. i pray God sees the reality i building with my mind power he empowers, the reality built with flesh&blood, and nerves.
on way to office near 4:40pm, i saw a tall girl with white short coat, esp. a short boot my girl zhou loves to wear. she accompany a girl pal walked to the opposing direction of mine, but when i look back to her, i felt surer and surer she is my girl zhou. her bag, her pose, remind me my long time no see girl zhou, among so many confusing fake females performed in front of me. God, i saw more and more clues of ur bliss, i know from early moment that my girl zhou forever saint like a dew from mid night Heaven, i know she preparing our wedding ceremony exactly for us, for me as her dreamed bridegroom. God, isn't it that my good times arriving?

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