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murmur&mandate in transit life. by benzrad
December 30, 2009, 11:29 am
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29/12
dreamed a lot.^last night thought some time on bed before fell into sleep. dreamed of family, hometown folks, colleagues, alumni. also dreamed of many places. dreamed in my palace with a servant eat cookies for VIPs. got up urined then dozed till after 9am. in office dealt my GAE, with the forum's author's new direction, finished most apps&new forums' setup. my girl zhou first time holding a man's arms to urge me act. felt cold upon the changes. roamed around the front area of QRRS, first don't want to meet my girl, then God let me don't lose passion, so try to follow her, but don't find her in the rush float of QRRS staff. reviewed my situation in dorm, tried to contact the high rank in QRRS, a Zhou, twice for invoice the love between my girl&me, but can't connect neither his office nor home phone. God, help my girl zhou killing dirts around her, killing dogs blocking between us, not matter cops or mafia. Royal of China, in my title, forever sane, saint&untouchable beautiful. my new life with my girl zhou should descends in the beginning of 2010. God, reinforce me with love&do right immediate, blow away hatred&dark the evil try their best to horse me down.

28/12
my girl zhou turns playful.^dreamed of easy sex among my senior middle school alumni. fight for pure love&its sex. dreamed in dawn some ants eating bees, breaking their shells. dozed again after washed head. in office restored os. read awhile ebook on axis of evil: communism left in the world, among biting from facing dog. its a bright morning. greet my girl in rush time, she first time shown her proactive guesture after passed over my office. roamed some time to avoid dirty dog on facing desk. read awhile before return to dorm. immersed in an ebook on cyber war in dorm, till tired&dozed. felt lucky again upon my coming family with my girl zhou. waited her after dinner&follow her till cross road. praying God i can live with her sooner, i really love her, her figure this time i closely perceived. review my love for girl zhou after returned dorm&pray God let me in Heaven with a new family with my girl zhou sooner. buzzed baby's mother about dining out agenda, then roamed outside. met cop on the way. the evil plots detaining me in asylum or prison. bought 2 eggs&ate.

27/12
dreamed of sex with my girl zhou.^last night enjoyed music a lot. in dawn dreamed in my palace sex with my girl zhou, my other wives, one is likely Masheng, my second wife from Japan, and my baby son, also present. then dreamed a guy in the contest of driving electronic game, but his game controller bad, so i lent him my mouse or cellphone to control. bought socks&inner pants. continued to fix down forum of be21zh.org, failed again. try to contact the app's author. after lunch debug the app again in dorm till it works. returned to office to update the app online but it strangely don't work online. the facing dog soon visit office&stayed there all time when i busy debugging. at first the gay biting heavily, after i dealt with email from the author of the app, biting turns down. the dinner tasteless. in dorm gloomy attacted me. felt lonely. listen music in night. do personal care.

26/12
got up after 9am. dozed again till seeing bright sunshine outside. roamed some time outside. listen music&reveiw my love after lunch, dozed again for boring. doubting if QRRS reschedules so visit office. found office empty while neighbor depart all on duty. launched to fix my forum at http://forum.be21zh.org, where a wrongly created forum let homepage broken. posted daily tweet, failed fix the app&gave up till after 5pm. continued fix it in dorm by setup GAE&succeeded. reviewed my love in music. the half full moon clearly&serenely glows in mid sky.

25/12
the 5th snow, a heavy snow.^last night slept later in high mood. a bit restless on bed&fell into sleep lately. this morning woke up after 9:30am. dreamed of my wedding ceremony, but i seemingly not happy like should be, also don't familiar with my wife&peek her privately. dreamed Chinese force squad, ie. army&police, practised (cyberspace) dealing hajack in a large office tower, likely CCTV, herds of police equipped with pistols or guns, but just wait&track the man kidnapped a someone, in the countless rooms&corridors&stairs. its likely also an electronic war, for in the dream i strongly dispised the vomitting defensive attitude on Internet China sinful authority nowadays adopted. in office published recent photos with a blog entry expressing. greet my girl zhou, who walked alone under my office to assure me our saint private connection exists anytime&everytime, against in yesterday's rush time evil arranged trifle persons' attempting to mess up. busy with refined my forum, one of my google app engines, at http://forum.be21zh.org, in the afternoon, fine tuned page's template, correct google friend connect due to url remapping. the department gathered for lunch out, let me alone in office. the facing dog second day in serial lingered in office&darting poisons even in his vacation. it snows all day&covered ground thick. roamed outside the dorms area after 7pm, picked the crowd in the local church, where hosting a singing&dancing party for Jesus, almost wept with a song when review my love&missing for God&my girls, esp. girl zhou, who is praying for our fruit of love so sincerely. reviewed my love for baby son, God of Universe, and my girl zhou, my heart harden with blesses that our deep harmony in our coming marriage seeds more.

24/12
dreamed of George H. W. Bush.^last night dreamed with bless in songs. dreamed my elder brother. killing a tortoise by cutting its head twice with blade釬 when it stick out. look into the possible evil in elder brother's. dreamed in dawn accompanying George H. W. Bush in his election team. bush is a kind&easy man with lots of original ideas, while his wife manages lots of things. later seemingly i was in my own election team. got up lately near 9am. felt glad so many lucky things in my life ahead&can't help count days in exciting, like Spring festival in eyes of a child. read in office in the morning, saluted my girl in bright sunshine. busy with refining family 163 blogs, built groups within each family member's account, ie. IIDChina, faezrland, emagarten, warranzh. sorted stuff got from web&portable. got a bonus of ¥200 for the New Year's Day from QRRS. treat baby son&his mom with fried lamb leg as scheduled, such a great moment with baby son, never words can express the elation. snows killing since i ruturned to the dorm. i felt so contented, Dad, God. i finally got my white wine after waited for so many days. God blessed the world of good, as all sees, esp. those homeless and live poor, live them with hope&surprise, as i can do it myself.

23/12
dreamed of love. life in our own rhythm in central China on agenda.^last night went to bed on time for too eager for Thursday when i will treat baby son&his mom in nearby restaurant with fried lamb leg. in dawn dreamed of circus, my elder sister&2 kid brother(i had only one kid brother in fact. in dream the kid brother help to perform is a tall young man, likely the actor in recent Korea TV series in CCTV1) help. i urged to treat animals with kindness forever. its atmosphere is happy and love, seemingly my marriage is to forged&relatives all looking forward it. then dreamed in drama, ema's relative, a tall female, appears in it. its really a loving&touching night, for in dreams all emotion floats loves&best wishes. got up earlier, before 7:30am, too exciting these days for my new life ahead.
in office read feeds. then claimed family namespace with free first level domain in .tk. sorted bookmarks&portable. met my girl once, but for busy with the domain felt at a loss more or less when saluting my girl after passions last night. after dinner met my girl again near the front door of QRRS. trifle persons still puffing sands amid us, but i see clear my girl with me like a bud, a slim&tall bud with dews from Heaven on it, leaving me in our vested valley alone pursue her wind, color, dance, and perfume. God, i forever cherish my girl zhou's lean soul&cordiality in the life we bound since love dents our hearts. dogs in the dorm i now linger brought thick dirts, and foully smessy, but God see my girls' intact, in my title. arranged tomorrow's treat with baby&his mom. roamed again around, God let me arrange my new life after married my girl zhou, i definitely longing the strong sunshine in my hometown. and i missing my kid brother, who still fighting a rootless living in southern China with his family, very much. i would buy he&his family a new house in the county, Wuxue, or help he settle down in the city with a business, according his long time wish. i would like buy a new house in the small county city with my own family, too, enjoy the sunshine and clear seaons with plenty rains&thunderstorms. i also need refurnish house of my passed dad, God, Founder of new Empire of China, in the blessed mountain village, Zhudajiu.

22/12
dreams. joyful moment with my girl zhou.^last night went to bed earlier, just around 9pm. dreamed with some aged researching sand&underground water. dreamed on Lushang廬山, Jianxi Prov., China, likely with my spouse, on a bridge. research its missing lakes, villa of Jiangjieshi蔣介石 there, etc. those days also doubting where is my girl Lü, whose neaty&independent enchanted me a lot when she came over to emakingir's house for tutorial, and fight with ema for her hope to marry me&succeeded. she is my first wife that arrives later. her brewing of loving me for years in loneliness while so young wins respects from all my wives. posting tweet in office, refined geotagged photos. read within greader since then. my girl zhou again affirmed our love&her being blessed. gays in the office building, esp. the fake ganster who in fact a thin lamb or lame duck in neighbor room tried to dirt. snowing likely gathering to kill tonight. after dinner roamed&ran into rush time of QRRS, but don't see my girl in the crowd. the early serene moon and white snowflakes falling all around really too beautiful. especially felt auspicious tonight, which snowing. Masheng, closer to me&let's enjoy family life earlier, let it starts with my new life in the beginning of 2010, if u r ready. promised me never leave me alone in ur soul nor physically. i love u&thankful, God sees. i wouldn't let u alone care our first son, my second son, nor with our other 2 sons when we both in mid age&thanksful&perceptive, years only adds wise&lean soul, no change in ur forever young beauty. just coming into my reach. and BTW, how is u now with baby son, warrenzh, Hope of China, God of Universe? this night we stay together, and should so forever.
all night listening music, and retrospect my love.

21/12
dreamed of hometown.^last night the corridor's lamps all can't light up. strange persons&sounds in the dark floor. in dawn dreamed returning to hometown, where hosts celebrating banquet for me. dreamed of shitting. posted recent photos&refined my google maps, posted recent lengthy tweets to blogs. seeing my girl zhou's encourages for me in rush time, really inspiring! read feed&tried some tips in it. baby's mom buzzed in at noon, i persuade her not to come over to hand in momey for my life settled well&she accepted. reviewed my love history&deeply touched by the being blessed. God, sees me&my prayer.

20/12
dreamed of baby son.^late sleep. dreamed of freaky hooligans, who kidnapped travelers in Shangdong by pretending railway station staff. the victims in heavy rains forced to believe in the freaks. baby son in later dream&signed me to notice spies outside of the door. for sunshine really bright so haunted around&shot some photo for QRRS' stylish buildings, sorted them after returned dorm. dozed after lunch, dreamed of almost sex with baby's mother, but stopped by spying eyes. then dreamed of God, my dad, asked him to save my girl, girl zhou or ema. all night staying room reveiwing my situation.

19/12
sound sleep.^last night first time changed my dose&it worked well. i got up till 10:30am. dozed again after lunch, dreamed of gain large fortune&met my sister in hometown. dreamed chosen to act as referee in sports game&trained in contest. all afternoon in dozed. roamed around the dorm area after dinner&felt misery in chill of wind. stay in dorm all night, nor buzz baby to avoid freaky surveillance.

18/12
Dad's memory day.^Today is the day dad pasted me for 3 years. last night i check my site for him. dreamed preparing English exam. in dawn dreamed help my once dempartment before it broke into now 2 parts designing its magzine. dreamed sorting porn video disks. last night slept soon$sound. since last night i had comsumed all of one kind of pills, only left another pills for my dose. its a brilliant morning. in office clear recent feeds of google services update&IT news. tried lots of chrome extensions. sorted portable suite with updates esp. those extensions. my girl missing in rush time. the department director told me aid from QRRS amounts to ¥500&coming later. haunted community free cafe again. the only pc installed deepfreeze software left to me, strangely unlike other pcs in China nowadays Internet cafe, don't auto restore on power on. heavily been hacked, ie. remotely controlled. check my google maps&other family sites. buzzed baby's mom&refused her suggestion to take over my old medcines there. let baby son known his grandpa's anniversary&he nodded it. reviewed for 2 hours after return dorm the evil China surveillance&dogs cast on me&shocked. killing all the old dirty stuff on this freaky land is badly needed for a new China.

17/12
dreamed of infant baby son.^last night It started to snow to kill dirts. tried again posting daily tweet in unsafe cafe, by posting to my forum at http://forum.be21zh.org ,where allows posting anonymously&denying delete. met the canteen's owner&talked about my blessed fate&my new wife. a male dog there heavily profaned. slept later for preparing feeds reader for mobile environment. dogs' biting let me restlessly awhile. dreamed hometown gathering, where a once neighbor wife chatted with me. got up&dozed again. dreamed in dawn baby son when he is infant. heartbroken love for him for he is so little&young. regret since last night for i talked to his mom 2 days but didn't call him. regret turns strong&buzzed ema&baby when they visit clinic to fix baby's pested teech but unable to talk for noise there. the monitor told me the facing guy these days in his vacation. so i can adopt the lan wire he previously occupied. all afternoon then stay online to prepare mobile working space, ie. portable chrome with my bookmarks, my subscription reader, backup them to web drive&online office. also posted delayed tweets&calendar events. surfed in community free cafe after buzzed baby son. dogs in China surveillance hacked me face by face, using batch to xcopy my portable suite after i plug my udisk, deleted my browser's personal settings seconds after i unpacked it to hard disk from my udisk, all this likely just shown their spying tools' power, for the long history of tracking my web traffic got them most of my confidentials, with which I also do my best to set them open&universal accessible. google China also shown my web id listed in filtered contents. when i left, snow killing as it did last night.

16/12
updated my status in turbulence. dreamed join American army in US.^China surveillance upon me turns freaky. the office dogs seated just after i arrived. i at once tried to use the monitor's corporate lan to update my twitter, but soon broke twice for the leaving and returning monitor, who later made lots of complains that after my unplug his lan wire, he can't reconnect to the web after rejoin the lan. God sees how the demon tentatively made the unusual problem happen on his pc (it never happen on my notebook). busy with finishing scheduled task, including creating a new flick group for my namespace, IIDChina, so missed saluting to my girl Zhou in QRRS rush time, but caught her in the rush time of beginning of afternoon. she walked alone the other lane, showing reservation on me. God, i never want conflicts in my rest marriages. i deserves peace and deep harmony between my partners and me from now on, for ur glory uncomparable on the earth.
dined early to prepare to salute my girl zhou, but dogs plotting to trap me in sexual infamous. so sheered back to dorm. haunted awhile the community free cafe. baby's mother, emakingir, asked me to help refined her course demo's video.
dreamed joined American army with a brother or pal. on the train or queue toward frontline. and life after retired, with my family, likely including my wife and son in US.
refined portable suite. the department director invited to talk, urging me now first receive my old family's aid before the applied aid from QRRS arrive. reveals as i talk my girl appears in QRRS rush time&my treating the high rank of QRRS, a Zhou, whom i asked to borrow ¥3000 the day i rejoin QRRS' dorm, as my father-in-law. reveals i was basically a Christian. idle all time in office. ema later told me in phone she got her edited video. review my being blessed in dorm alone.

15/12
post recent blog. first time met my girl zhou on the ground.^Its a brilliant day. post blog wrote yesterday in office in a breeze, with all photos from our treat in KFC Tiedong franchise. in dorm review my love with girl Masheng, zhou, the Taiwan girl. dined near QRRS' over time then roamed alone its main road, met girl Zhou just under my office, follow her and her pals till she departed all&enter the lane she likely residents. praying God not a too embarrassing nor zigzag course before we got wired under a same roof. God, i totally under her charm, and got me her arms around me the sooner the better. watched Yangge collective dance after dinner on the square of QRRS, its beauty grasped me at once. female's tendering touch me in any vein or visional method when i was stopped. woke up early, about 5am, dreamed in a camp with a mother, likely girl Zhou, with her daughter. i was with my baby son. we tried to correct our babies.

14/12
reveiw my pastime with Masheng in music of Daolang.^most day idle. trying to use the community free cafe but sucked by the stupid&evil door keeper woman. dozed for more than 1 hours after noon as last weekend, then wrote a blog about my ordain. review my love&those pecular moments with Masheng in Nankai Univ when i there persue a master degree, with touching music by Daolang刀郎, a western China muscian. tried again to use community cafe, but found dogs surveillance me on every presence, and plotted detailedly to defame me in losing. God shown me every device&trap. killing dog is the persistant job for my family&I should never forget it.

13/12
tried to make use of community free Internet cafe to prepare posting photos but failed.^last day busy with preparing a portable suite to work on free Internet hub within QRRS dorms, where all pc heavily infected with malware&spyware. tried it after dinner, almost succeeded but backup data wrongly so most works lost. dreamed war fire and holy message that with endurance&persistence all things&disconfort runs straight. later dreamed caring baby son, urging him to put on shoes to leave, but he playful till his mom arriving. we watched an aged practising calligraphy, which likes dao道 (means way in English) but with differences.

12/12
posted a blog with photo for 4th snow&Masheng's descending last afternoon.^shot snow scene on way to office. Its likely the thickest snow of 2009. posted these photos with a blog entry to my blogs. ema came over to settle bank stuff, ie. destroy my old salary account, deposit for baby monthly. for clerk said now an account with 2 withdraw methods (a card&a book) not supported, i gave up holding the credit card&left it baby's mother. such a maverallous time in KFC franchise. lots of shots. first time i bought family suite of fried chiecken. check posting in night in dorms open cafe. this morning dreamed of fans of popstar, like Korean or Chinese, like Guohan郭韓. we with their agency in a room underground. also fight with some kids likely including the baby girl in KFC franchise yesterday. preparing portable suite now for mobile working space. dozed first time on bed after noon, dreamed a kid girl accompany me for a long time in tunnel. my second baby would be a daughter with girl Zhou. my 3rd son is one of the fruits with the Taiwan girl, in my 4th marriage which forged for us by my dad himself.

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